1 00:00:00,552 --> 00:00:02,293 Previously on "New Amsterdam"... 2 00:00:02,336 --> 00:00:03,381 Have you met the group? 3 00:00:03,424 --> 00:00:04,860 That's Willow. - And Millie. 4 00:00:04,904 --> 00:00:06,514 Don't be scared. We don't bite. 5 00:00:06,558 --> 00:00:08,690 You're calling yourself this 6 00:00:08,734 --> 00:00:11,040 and you're gonna keep suffering until you stop. 7 00:00:11,084 --> 00:00:12,694 If I can stop. 8 00:00:12,738 --> 00:00:15,523 It's been a family tradition since before I was born. 9 00:00:15,567 --> 00:00:17,351 Sunday means church, family, 10 00:00:17,395 --> 00:00:19,179 and a meal with two meats! 11 00:00:19,223 --> 00:00:20,789 I can't help it; it's so good 12 00:00:20,833 --> 00:00:22,574 and I can't live without it, like I can't live without you. 13 00:00:22,617 --> 00:00:23,966 Aww. 14 00:00:28,797 --> 00:00:29,798 How's Luna? 15 00:00:29,842 --> 00:00:31,060 Frolicking in suburban splendor 16 00:00:31,104 --> 00:00:32,323 with Georgia's parents. 17 00:00:32,366 --> 00:00:33,846 I miss her. It's just not safe enough 18 00:00:33,889 --> 00:00:35,021 to bring her home. 19 00:00:35,064 --> 00:00:37,241 Nothing's safe anymore, though, is it? 20 00:00:41,767 --> 00:00:44,291 Every tile in her house needed re-grouting. 21 00:00:44,335 --> 00:00:45,727 Every pipe needed to be winterized, 22 00:00:45,771 --> 00:00:47,903 and that was between the grocery store runs 23 00:00:47,947 --> 00:00:50,123 and delivering chicken dinners to the usher board. 24 00:00:50,166 --> 00:00:52,734 I knew your mama would have you rippin' and runnin'. 25 00:00:52,778 --> 00:00:55,433 You know she's still mad we moved to San Francisco. 26 00:00:55,476 --> 00:00:56,999 I mean, every time I tried to talk to her about it, 27 00:00:57,043 --> 00:00:59,698 she just snuck off to bed. 28 00:00:59,741 --> 00:01:02,353 But just getting to see her and my sisters for two weeks 29 00:01:02,396 --> 00:01:03,615 made it all worthwhile. 30 00:01:03,658 --> 00:01:04,833 Well, when you get off that plane, 31 00:01:04,877 --> 00:01:06,400 you'll putting those eyes on me. 32 00:01:06,444 --> 00:01:08,097 Well, hopefully more than eyes. 33 00:01:08,141 --> 00:01:09,403 What did you have in mind? 34 00:01:11,710 --> 00:01:14,103 Oh, surprise. That's her. 35 00:01:14,147 --> 00:01:16,584 Hang on. 36 00:01:16,628 --> 00:01:18,064 Oh. 37 00:01:18,107 --> 00:01:20,501 Three goodbyes at the door wasn't enough? 38 00:01:22,808 --> 00:01:25,114 Mama? 39 00:01:25,158 --> 00:01:26,768 Whoa--whoa, Mama, hang on. 40 00:01:26,812 --> 00:01:29,771 I can't-- I can't understand you. 41 00:01:29,815 --> 00:01:31,773 Mama. 42 00:01:31,817 --> 00:01:35,429 No, no, no. Do not move. I'm coming. 43 00:01:35,473 --> 00:01:36,865 Hey, we need to turn around. 44 00:01:42,828 --> 00:01:44,960 Am I supposed to feel like I'm being choked? 45 00:01:45,004 --> 00:01:46,135 I want this off now. 46 00:01:46,179 --> 00:01:47,572 You need to stay immobilized. 47 00:01:47,615 --> 00:01:49,313 I told you not to call an ambulance. 48 00:01:49,356 --> 00:01:50,444 Mama. 49 00:01:50,488 --> 00:01:51,924 You know how expensive those things are? 50 00:01:51,967 --> 00:01:53,317 It's fine. I'll handle it. 51 00:01:53,360 --> 00:01:54,970 Oh, sure, Mr. Moneybags, 52 00:01:55,014 --> 00:01:57,233 while you're dragging me all through COVID-land here. 53 00:01:57,277 --> 00:01:59,540 If I could've given you a CT scan at home, I would've. 54 00:01:59,584 --> 00:02:01,629 I don't need a scan. - You don't need a scan? 55 00:02:01,673 --> 00:02:02,804 I found you laid out on the ground, 56 00:02:02,848 --> 00:02:04,371 bleeding from your head, okay? 57 00:02:04,415 --> 00:02:05,677 We're gonna run every test we can 58 00:02:05,720 --> 00:02:07,243 to make sure you don't have trauma. 59 00:02:07,287 --> 00:02:08,375 Do I sound like I have trauma? 60 00:02:08,419 --> 00:02:09,681 Floyd! I just heard. 61 00:02:09,724 --> 00:02:11,857 How you feeling, Ms. Reynolds? - Lousy. You? 62 00:02:11,900 --> 00:02:13,424 It's crazy; I was on my way to the airport-- 63 00:02:13,467 --> 00:02:14,686 I got you. We're gonna run some tests. 64 00:02:14,729 --> 00:02:16,165 I'm gonna run point on this. I got you. 65 00:02:16,209 --> 00:02:17,819 Don't worry about it. - Max, you don't have to do-- 66 00:02:17,863 --> 00:02:19,038 No, no, no. You were here for Vijay. 67 00:02:19,081 --> 00:02:20,561 Now we're here for you. 68 00:02:22,824 --> 00:02:23,869 Oh! Max! 69 00:02:23,912 --> 00:02:25,479 I hear Floyd's mother's in the ED. 70 00:02:25,523 --> 00:02:27,699 Oh, yeah, she took a fall, but we're getting some tests. 71 00:02:27,742 --> 00:02:29,396 I think she's gonna be okay. 72 00:02:29,440 --> 00:02:30,484 Speaking of falling... 73 00:02:34,096 --> 00:02:35,359 Oh, Luna! 74 00:02:37,926 --> 00:02:39,450 Yeah, she'll be walking in no time. 75 00:02:39,493 --> 00:02:41,495 I'd say she's walking now. - No, no. 76 00:02:41,539 --> 00:02:43,671 That--that's a stumble. 77 00:02:43,715 --> 00:02:45,499 Well, it's less than a saunter. 78 00:02:45,543 --> 00:02:47,022 I'll give you that. - Yeah. 79 00:02:47,066 --> 00:02:48,589 But it couldn't be because there's no way 80 00:02:48,633 --> 00:02:50,635 that my baby girl would take her first steps without me. 81 00:02:50,678 --> 00:02:52,593 All video evidence to the contrary. 82 00:02:52,637 --> 00:02:54,378 When you bringing her home? 83 00:02:54,421 --> 00:02:55,857 Not till it's safe. 84 00:02:55,901 --> 00:02:57,642 If Luna doesn't need to be here, she shouldn't be. 85 00:02:57,685 --> 00:02:58,947 And her grandparents are great. 86 00:02:58,991 --> 00:03:00,688 They're crazy careful, they got a big yard-- 87 00:03:00,732 --> 00:03:02,473 They take lots of videos. - They do. 88 00:03:02,516 --> 00:03:05,214 Of Luna not walking. - She's not. 89 00:03:05,258 --> 00:03:06,433 Max? - Yeah? 90 00:03:06,477 --> 00:03:07,521 Hey, hi. Can I talk to you for a sec? 91 00:03:07,565 --> 00:03:08,566 Yeah, perfect timing. 92 00:03:08,609 --> 00:03:09,871 What does this look like to you? 93 00:03:09,915 --> 00:03:12,178 Um...oh, my gosh! Luna! She's walking! 94 00:03:12,221 --> 00:03:13,309 No. No. Wrong answer. 95 00:03:13,353 --> 00:03:14,920 Oh. Sorry, yeah. 96 00:03:14,963 --> 00:03:16,835 Hard to tell what's happening on that tiny little screen. 97 00:03:16,878 --> 00:03:18,314 It is! 98 00:03:18,358 --> 00:03:19,968 Which is actually what I wanted to talk to you about. 99 00:03:20,012 --> 00:03:21,492 I was just trying to get some screen time in 100 00:03:21,535 --> 00:03:23,319 with Ella and Vijay, who I think is recuperating well, 101 00:03:23,363 --> 00:03:25,713 but I wouldn't know, because the hospital's system sucks. 102 00:03:25,757 --> 00:03:28,150 Yeah, agreed. - It glitches all the time. 103 00:03:28,194 --> 00:03:29,456 It does. - Yeah. 104 00:03:29,500 --> 00:03:30,979 And the telemedicine thing is getting brutal. 105 00:03:31,023 --> 00:03:32,851 I mean, like, I need to be with my patients in person. 106 00:03:32,894 --> 00:03:34,635 I need to see them. - It's not safe, Iggy. 107 00:03:34,679 --> 00:03:36,245 Unless we're talking life or death, 108 00:03:36,289 --> 00:03:38,596 the longer people stay away from the hospital, the better. 109 00:03:38,639 --> 00:03:39,771 They'll wear masks. 110 00:03:39,814 --> 00:03:41,816 How are you gonna read facial cues? 111 00:03:41,860 --> 00:03:43,731 All right. So we'll sit outside. 112 00:03:43,775 --> 00:03:45,385 Not until they're vaccinated like us. 113 00:03:45,429 --> 00:03:47,953 Iggy, it's too soon. I'm sorry. 114 00:03:50,477 --> 00:03:52,000 Can someone help? 115 00:03:53,654 --> 00:03:54,873 I'll take her, but you just can't-- 116 00:03:54,916 --> 00:03:55,961 It's okay, it's okay. I got it. 117 00:03:56,004 --> 00:03:58,093 It's her wrist. - Can you move it? 118 00:03:58,137 --> 00:03:59,399 Ah, it hurts so bad. 119 00:03:59,443 --> 00:04:01,009 Okay, we're gonna do a COVID test 120 00:04:01,053 --> 00:04:02,881 and Casey's gonna get your patient history 121 00:04:02,924 --> 00:04:04,404 and we're gonna order a scan-- 122 00:04:04,448 --> 00:04:06,972 I'm thinking Colles' fracture of the distal radius. 123 00:04:07,015 --> 00:04:08,452 And you are? 124 00:04:08,495 --> 00:04:09,844 Her DriveTime driver. 125 00:04:09,888 --> 00:04:11,498 I think I can take it from here, but thank you. 126 00:04:11,542 --> 00:04:12,934 Five stars. 127 00:04:14,370 --> 00:04:17,243 38-year-old woman. Stage-II esophageal cancer. 128 00:04:17,286 --> 00:04:18,679 Millie? 129 00:04:18,723 --> 00:04:20,594 Oh, I'm so sorry, Dr. Sharpe. 130 00:04:20,638 --> 00:04:21,987 Large-volume hematemesis. 131 00:04:22,030 --> 00:04:25,207 Now tachy, but otherwise hemodynamically stable. 132 00:04:25,251 --> 00:04:27,949 Can we get her in the back? - Yeah. 133 00:04:32,780 --> 00:04:35,348 We've been worried about you. My office reached out. 134 00:04:35,391 --> 00:04:37,132 I know. I know. 135 00:04:37,176 --> 00:04:39,787 You've missed a number of treatments. 136 00:04:39,831 --> 00:04:41,789 We were doing the whole stay-at-home order thing 137 00:04:41,833 --> 00:04:44,662 and I was feeling so much better. 138 00:04:44,705 --> 00:04:46,925 I thought it was crazy to take the risk. 139 00:04:46,968 --> 00:04:49,884 I mean, after three years of fighting cancer, 140 00:04:49,928 --> 00:04:52,583 to die of some stupid virus? 141 00:04:54,802 --> 00:04:56,891 We'll need to do some new tests. 142 00:04:58,850 --> 00:05:00,634 I'm gonna be all right, aren't I? 143 00:05:07,859 --> 00:05:10,339 June, remember our agreement? 144 00:05:10,383 --> 00:05:12,559 You know, I love a carousel as much as the next guy-- 145 00:05:12,603 --> 00:05:14,692 probably even more, truth be told-- 146 00:05:14,735 --> 00:05:17,303 but let's try to keep the focus on you. 147 00:05:18,565 --> 00:05:20,175 Thank you. 148 00:05:20,219 --> 00:05:21,133 How's your day? 149 00:05:22,874 --> 00:05:25,137 You do any journaling this week? 150 00:05:27,139 --> 00:05:29,184 Okay, June, I-- 151 00:05:29,228 --> 00:05:32,579 I get that this is not ideal, the video thing. 152 00:05:32,623 --> 00:05:35,408 But I would love it if both of us could give it our best shot. 153 00:05:35,451 --> 00:05:37,541 What do you think? 154 00:05:37,584 --> 00:05:39,064 So tell me about your journaling. 155 00:05:39,107 --> 00:05:41,545 What do you got? 156 00:05:41,588 --> 00:05:43,851 I guess it was... 157 00:05:43,895 --> 00:05:46,462 No. Oh, no. Ah! 158 00:05:46,506 --> 00:05:48,290 June, hang--hang on one second. 159 00:05:48,334 --> 00:05:50,597 What is--hold on. 160 00:05:50,641 --> 00:05:51,903 Can you hear me? 161 00:05:51,946 --> 00:05:53,644 June, can you hear me? 162 00:05:54,601 --> 00:05:55,907 Oh, my God. 163 00:05:55,950 --> 00:05:58,431 This sucks. 164 00:05:58,474 --> 00:05:59,693 Welcome to my world. 165 00:05:59,737 --> 00:06:02,261 Yeah. 166 00:06:02,304 --> 00:06:03,349 Yeah. 167 00:06:03,392 --> 00:06:04,698 How often do you get to see anybody 168 00:06:04,742 --> 00:06:07,483 that's not trapped inside of this little box? 169 00:06:07,527 --> 00:06:09,094 Folks not included, obviously. 170 00:06:09,137 --> 00:06:11,792 Never. Like, never. 171 00:06:11,836 --> 00:06:13,011 And most of your friends, 172 00:06:13,054 --> 00:06:14,795 they're all congregating outside again? 173 00:06:14,839 --> 00:06:16,754 They all are, 174 00:06:16,797 --> 00:06:18,364 while I'm just the immunocompromised freak 175 00:06:18,407 --> 00:06:19,626 still stuck at home. 176 00:06:19,670 --> 00:06:22,063 Whoa, whoa. You are not a freak. 177 00:06:22,107 --> 00:06:25,240 You have an illness that you are managing. 178 00:06:25,284 --> 00:06:26,851 You know, maybe we can talk to your parents 179 00:06:26,894 --> 00:06:30,332 and see if we can set up some safe visitations or... 180 00:06:30,376 --> 00:06:31,682 I don't know, something. 181 00:06:31,725 --> 00:06:33,074 Good luck. 182 00:06:33,118 --> 00:06:35,947 They won't even let me out on our stoop. 183 00:06:37,470 --> 00:06:39,341 Right. 184 00:06:44,216 --> 00:06:46,784 When COVID hit and everybody was, like, 185 00:06:46,827 --> 00:06:48,699 stuck in their house, hating it, 186 00:06:48,742 --> 00:06:50,570 that must've been really weird for you 187 00:06:50,614 --> 00:06:52,267 because suddenly, 188 00:06:52,311 --> 00:06:56,184 everybody kinda knew what it was like to be you. 189 00:06:56,228 --> 00:06:58,796 I mean... 190 00:06:58,839 --> 00:07:02,016 I guess I felt normal for a couple months. 191 00:07:02,060 --> 00:07:04,410 I could hang out with my friends online 192 00:07:04,453 --> 00:07:06,238 without missing out on anything, 193 00:07:06,281 --> 00:07:08,675 but now, everything's back to normal... 194 00:07:08,719 --> 00:07:10,677 for them. 195 00:07:14,681 --> 00:07:16,465 June? 196 00:07:16,509 --> 00:07:18,293 Will you show me your hands? 197 00:07:20,687 --> 00:07:22,776 You have to show them to me, June. 198 00:07:22,820 --> 00:07:23,821 Now, please. 199 00:07:35,876 --> 00:07:37,138 Max. - Hey. 200 00:07:37,182 --> 00:07:38,792 Still waiting on those labs. How's she doing? 201 00:07:38,836 --> 00:07:39,924 Well, she's more concerned 202 00:07:39,967 --> 00:07:41,229 about getting COVID than the fall. 203 00:07:41,273 --> 00:07:42,448 She should be. 204 00:07:42,491 --> 00:07:43,884 I'm sure that'll make her feel better. 205 00:07:43,928 --> 00:07:45,712 I don't suppose there's a safer place for her? 206 00:07:45,756 --> 00:07:47,888 How do you feel about New Zealand? 207 00:07:47,932 --> 00:07:49,455 See, now I don't even want to be here. 208 00:07:49,498 --> 00:07:51,370 Yeah, maybe you shouldn't be. You want to wait outside? 209 00:07:51,413 --> 00:07:52,588 I'll give you an update. 210 00:07:52,632 --> 00:07:53,807 Think I'm just gonna do the 6-feet thing. 211 00:07:53,851 --> 00:07:56,462 Max. - Dora! 212 00:07:56,505 --> 00:07:58,812 The conquering traitor returns. 213 00:07:58,856 --> 00:08:00,466 It was a promotion. - Yeah. 214 00:08:00,509 --> 00:08:02,294 I still can't believe those evil pencil pushers 215 00:08:02,337 --> 00:08:04,339 lured you away with a fancy title and more money. 216 00:08:04,383 --> 00:08:05,819 Shocking, I know. 217 00:08:05,863 --> 00:08:07,995 And yet, here you are finding your way back to me. 218 00:08:08,039 --> 00:08:10,345 Which wasn't hard, since there's hardly anyone here. 219 00:08:10,389 --> 00:08:12,304 Yeah, which most would call "good news." 220 00:08:12,347 --> 00:08:13,914 Speaking of which, can I show you 221 00:08:13,958 --> 00:08:16,047 this adorable video of my daughter not walking? 222 00:08:16,090 --> 00:08:18,353 No, and it's not good news 223 00:08:18,397 --> 00:08:19,920 if you're trying to dig yourself out 224 00:08:19,964 --> 00:08:23,358 of a massive financial hole left by this pandemic. 225 00:08:23,402 --> 00:08:25,839 The public is wary of coming back here, Max, 226 00:08:25,883 --> 00:08:27,798 and without the money from elective surgeries, 227 00:08:27,841 --> 00:08:29,321 you can't pay for the emergent ones. 228 00:08:29,364 --> 00:08:32,367 So we need a powerful and effective PSA 229 00:08:32,411 --> 00:08:33,760 to save this place. 230 00:08:33,804 --> 00:08:35,196 A what now? 231 00:08:35,240 --> 00:08:37,808 HCC's funding a campaign to encourage patients 232 00:08:37,851 --> 00:08:41,028 to return to New Amsterdam. 233 00:08:41,072 --> 00:08:43,596 But I don't want patients returning to New Amsterdam-- 234 00:08:43,639 --> 00:08:44,858 not if they don't have to, 235 00:08:44,902 --> 00:08:47,295 not until there's enough vaccine for everyone. 236 00:08:47,339 --> 00:08:50,516 We can't wait for that. We need revenue now. 237 00:08:50,559 --> 00:08:52,779 So you need to step in front of a camera, smile, 238 00:08:52,823 --> 00:08:54,825 and tell the good people of New York 239 00:08:54,868 --> 00:08:57,175 to get their butts back here. 240 00:08:58,219 --> 00:09:00,352 Or you'll go down in history as the medical director 241 00:09:00,395 --> 00:09:02,833 who closed America's first public hospital. 242 00:09:07,800 --> 00:09:09,581 Can I be straight with you? 243 00:09:09,610 --> 00:09:11,049 Here at New Amsterdam, 244 00:09:11,050 --> 00:09:13,009 we all honestly feel that, 245 00:09:13,180 --> 00:09:14,790 despite our great challenge... 246 00:09:17,536 --> 00:09:18,711 Max? 247 00:09:18,410 --> 00:09:19,889 Sorry, I'm not a writer or anything; 248 00:09:19,900 --> 00:09:22,163 it just feels like calling our recent experience 249 00:09:22,170 --> 00:09:23,780 a "challenge" feels a little like calling 250 00:09:23,781 --> 00:09:25,479 the Holocaust a "bummer," you know what I mean? 251 00:09:25,480 --> 00:09:28,179 Like, maybe this whole thing is just a little beyond words. 252 00:09:28,200 --> 00:09:30,507 Oh, no. We have the words. 253 00:09:30,740 --> 00:09:32,629 Your job is to say them. 254 00:09:32,700 --> 00:09:34,006 Oh, okay. Great. 255 00:09:34,508 --> 00:09:35,988 And action. 256 00:09:38,860 --> 00:09:40,209 Can I be straight with you? 257 00:09:40,253 --> 00:09:42,037 I don't know, can I? I mean, am I allowed to be? 258 00:09:42,081 --> 00:09:44,344 Because if I was honestly being straight with you, 259 00:09:44,388 --> 00:09:45,563 then I would probably tell you never-- 260 00:09:45,606 --> 00:09:48,957 Max! - This--okay, just do it again. 261 00:09:54,310 --> 00:09:56,269 Of course, no one likes coming to the hospital-- 262 00:09:56,312 --> 00:09:57,444 although that's not even true. 263 00:09:57,488 --> 00:09:59,403 I mean, what about having a baby? 264 00:09:59,446 --> 00:10:01,317 That's a great moment! That's exciting. 265 00:10:01,361 --> 00:10:03,407 Right? 266 00:10:03,450 --> 00:10:05,278 Can I be straight with you? 267 00:10:08,020 --> 00:10:09,543 Sorry, sorry. My brain just kind of... 268 00:10:10,675 --> 00:10:11,763 We should probably cut. 269 00:10:11,806 --> 00:10:13,547 Can I--is that okay if I say that? 270 00:10:13,591 --> 00:10:16,071 Can I be straight with you? Uh, sorry. 271 00:10:16,115 --> 00:10:18,465 That was--I don't know why I did the point thing. 272 00:10:18,509 --> 00:10:21,468 Can I--no, cut. Let's cut that. 273 00:10:21,512 --> 00:10:22,730 Sorry, cut. 274 00:10:22,774 --> 00:10:24,906 Sorry for shouting. That was bad. 275 00:10:24,950 --> 00:10:27,387 I got it this time. Nope, I lied. What's the line? 276 00:10:28,606 --> 00:10:30,085 What's the next one? Uh, "like a"...? 277 00:10:30,129 --> 00:10:31,870 As an administration, we've implemented 278 00:10:31,913 --> 00:10:33,611 dozens of new safety measures. 279 00:10:33,654 --> 00:10:36,352 So, as a patient, nothing should deter you 280 00:10:36,396 --> 00:10:37,658 from walking through those doors. 281 00:10:37,702 --> 00:10:39,355 Except, I don't know, death, maybe? 282 00:10:39,399 --> 00:10:41,749 Which, of course, no safety measure can completely rule out 283 00:10:41,793 --> 00:10:43,577 and is a pretty strong deterrent, 284 00:10:43,621 --> 00:10:45,144 wouldn't you say, Brad? 285 00:10:48,234 --> 00:10:50,802 Can I be straight with you? 286 00:10:50,845 --> 00:10:54,675 Here at New Amsterdam, we honestly feel... 287 00:10:58,462 --> 00:11:01,334 I can... 288 00:11:01,377 --> 00:11:04,598 I can honestly tell you... 289 00:11:05,400 --> 00:11:06,199 What's wrong now, Max? 290 00:11:06,200 --> 00:11:08,202 It's just that when people are genuinely being honest 291 00:11:08,250 --> 00:11:11,078 with you, they don't keep telling you how honest they are 292 00:11:11,100 --> 00:11:13,102 and they don't say things like, "Can I be straight with you," 293 00:11:13,150 --> 00:11:15,196 which implies that they haven't been straight 294 00:11:15,200 --> 00:11:18,115 with anything else, which, to tell you the truth, Dora, 295 00:11:18,050 --> 00:11:19,573 kinda makes me sound like a liar. 296 00:11:19,600 --> 00:11:22,298 How could you be a liar when you haven't said anything? 297 00:11:22,500 --> 00:11:25,459 Including the tagline, "Come back to New Amsterdam." 298 00:11:25,550 --> 00:11:27,334 Because that would be the biggest lie of all. 299 00:11:27,340 --> 00:11:28,689 What happened to the guy who used to say, 300 00:11:28,700 --> 00:11:30,036 "Our doors are always open"? 301 00:11:30,100 --> 00:11:32,189 What happened to bringing in patients off the streets? 302 00:11:32,250 --> 00:11:33,990 What happened was a global pandemic 303 00:11:34,067 --> 00:11:35,634 with no fully vetted vaccine. 304 00:11:35,677 --> 00:11:38,027 And even when we get enough doses, 305 00:11:38,071 --> 00:11:40,508 30% of Americans won't take it 306 00:11:40,552 --> 00:11:42,945 because of all the insane conspiracy theories. 307 00:11:42,989 --> 00:11:45,339 So can I be straight with you, Dora? 308 00:11:45,383 --> 00:11:47,472 This hospital is not safe. 309 00:11:47,515 --> 00:11:49,256 Not completely. 310 00:11:49,300 --> 00:11:51,519 And if you want a tagline, how's this? 311 00:11:51,563 --> 00:11:53,042 "Come back to New Amsterdam, 312 00:11:53,086 --> 00:11:57,090 'cause if you're not dead yet, we can finish the job." 313 00:12:02,356 --> 00:12:03,836 I wanted to bring you both into this 314 00:12:03,879 --> 00:12:07,231 because if June's anxiety has escalated into self-harm-- 315 00:12:07,274 --> 00:12:09,320 Ripping off her fingernails? 316 00:12:09,363 --> 00:12:10,886 How long has this been going on? 317 00:12:10,930 --> 00:12:12,975 I--I don't know. I just saw it this morning. 318 00:12:13,019 --> 00:12:14,716 But how could we have missed this? 319 00:12:14,760 --> 00:12:17,371 Because she hides it. But it's not your fault. 320 00:12:17,415 --> 00:12:18,851 And you should know that I have been pushing 321 00:12:18,894 --> 00:12:21,375 to get all of my patients back in here with me. 322 00:12:21,419 --> 00:12:23,290 If I had been working with June in person, 323 00:12:23,334 --> 00:12:24,509 I would've caught this a lot sooner-- 324 00:12:24,552 --> 00:12:25,727 She can't come back to the hospital. 325 00:12:25,771 --> 00:12:27,773 Are you even allowed? - Um... 326 00:12:27,816 --> 00:12:29,427 not at the moment, 327 00:12:29,470 --> 00:12:31,298 but I could convince our medical director 328 00:12:31,342 --> 00:12:32,734 in this particular case. 329 00:12:32,778 --> 00:12:34,736 No. It's too dangerous. 330 00:12:34,780 --> 00:12:36,260 She would be wearing an N95 mask 331 00:12:36,303 --> 00:12:37,565 just like our frontline workers. 332 00:12:37,609 --> 00:12:39,001 Have any of your frontline workers 333 00:12:39,045 --> 00:12:40,786 died from the virus? 334 00:12:40,829 --> 00:12:42,135 Yes. 335 00:12:42,178 --> 00:12:44,093 But with all of our safety protocols in place, 336 00:12:44,137 --> 00:12:46,357 New Amsterdam is safer than going to the market. 337 00:12:46,400 --> 00:12:48,620 We don't let her go there either. 338 00:12:48,663 --> 00:12:50,578 We want her here with us. 339 00:12:50,622 --> 00:12:53,625 Our home is the only place where she's 100% safe. 340 00:12:53,668 --> 00:12:56,323 But she's not safe. 341 00:12:56,367 --> 00:13:00,153 COVID has caused an epidemic of loneliness in this country. 342 00:13:00,196 --> 00:13:02,286 And the studies coming out show that living like June 343 00:13:02,329 --> 00:13:05,941 with no peer contact, it's like smoking 15 cigarettes a day. 344 00:13:05,985 --> 00:13:09,597 Your daughter is on the brink of serious clinical depression. 345 00:13:09,641 --> 00:13:13,079 But she's not dead. 346 00:13:13,122 --> 00:13:15,603 And that's what lets us sleep at night. 347 00:13:21,653 --> 00:13:24,133 Thank you for your concern. 348 00:13:33,360 --> 00:13:34,970 As you can see from the charts, 349 00:13:35,014 --> 00:13:37,146 there's no evidence of fracture, bleed, 350 00:13:37,190 --> 00:13:38,322 or subdural hematoma. 351 00:13:38,365 --> 00:13:39,453 So zero damage from the fall. 352 00:13:39,497 --> 00:13:40,628 Everything looks normal. 353 00:13:40,672 --> 00:13:43,544 Uh, not quite. Right, okay, thank you. 354 00:13:43,588 --> 00:13:45,416 Um, sorry, I told Floyd I'd help out on this one. 355 00:13:45,459 --> 00:13:48,375 There does seem to be a type of central hippocampal atrophy. 356 00:13:48,419 --> 00:13:49,637 So? 357 00:13:49,681 --> 00:13:51,160 Max, we found no indication of trauma. 358 00:13:51,204 --> 00:13:53,467 Right, because his mother has diabetes. 359 00:13:53,511 --> 00:13:54,860 Diabetes? 360 00:13:54,903 --> 00:13:56,514 I've been living with her for the past two weeks. 361 00:13:56,557 --> 00:13:58,167 I'm sure-- - Did she seem overly tired? 362 00:13:58,211 --> 00:13:59,908 Was she going to bed early? Did she forget things? 363 00:13:59,952 --> 00:14:02,084 Repeat stuff? - Well, sometimes, yeah, but-- 364 00:14:02,128 --> 00:14:03,738 Neuropathy from diabetes. 365 00:14:03,782 --> 00:14:05,479 I think it's why she fell, Floyd. 366 00:14:07,438 --> 00:14:11,398 And it's good news, because now we know how to treat her. 367 00:14:18,536 --> 00:14:21,060 It's gonna get a little loud. 368 00:14:21,103 --> 00:14:24,759 Louder than a house full of forced homeschool kids? 369 00:14:25,369 --> 00:14:27,240 Probably not. 370 00:14:27,283 --> 00:14:28,763 Quarantine wasn't all bad. 371 00:14:28,807 --> 00:14:31,853 The whole family stuck together. 372 00:14:31,897 --> 00:14:33,725 Found our rhythm. 373 00:14:33,768 --> 00:14:36,292 Movie nights. Cooking together. 374 00:14:36,336 --> 00:14:38,207 Puzzles. 375 00:14:38,251 --> 00:14:40,645 So many puzzles. 376 00:14:40,688 --> 00:14:42,690 You remember Brandon? 377 00:14:42,734 --> 00:14:45,171 The quiet one? - Yeah, the moody one. 378 00:14:46,564 --> 00:14:48,000 Without all the chemo, my hair grew back 379 00:14:48,043 --> 00:14:51,220 and he became a different person. 380 00:14:51,264 --> 00:14:52,744 Because of your hair? 381 00:14:52,787 --> 00:14:56,051 Because he stopped seeing me as a ghost. 382 00:14:56,095 --> 00:14:57,270 I became Mom again. 383 00:14:58,924 --> 00:15:02,362 And without chemo brain, I could actually listen. 384 00:15:02,406 --> 00:15:06,018 I could really hear him, you know? 385 00:15:06,061 --> 00:15:09,456 I could hear my son for the first time in years. 386 00:15:15,157 --> 00:15:17,421 Dr. Sharpe? 387 00:15:21,512 --> 00:15:23,992 It's back, isn't it? 388 00:15:28,606 --> 00:15:31,260 The cancer's metastasized. 389 00:15:35,787 --> 00:15:38,964 Is there anything we can do? 390 00:15:42,315 --> 00:15:45,318 I'm so sorry, Millie. 391 00:15:56,503 --> 00:16:00,812 Well, you do, in fact, have a broken bone in your wrist. 392 00:16:00,855 --> 00:16:03,597 Crack diagnosis from your DriveTime gal. 393 00:16:03,641 --> 00:16:06,208 It's crazy. It was days ago. 394 00:16:06,252 --> 00:16:08,820 I was riding so slow. The bike started to tip. 395 00:16:08,863 --> 00:16:11,344 I stuck my hand out to brace myself against the wall. 396 00:16:11,387 --> 00:16:12,737 That's what did it. 397 00:16:12,780 --> 00:16:14,521 But there was hardly any force. 398 00:16:14,565 --> 00:16:16,305 How could I have broken anything? 399 00:16:16,349 --> 00:16:17,611 Hey. 400 00:16:17,655 --> 00:16:19,221 How are you feeling? 401 00:16:19,265 --> 00:16:20,658 You're back. 402 00:16:20,701 --> 00:16:22,616 Did you-- - I got tested outside. 403 00:16:23,835 --> 00:16:25,271 Her wallet. Found it in the car. 404 00:16:25,314 --> 00:16:27,229 Pedestrian on the wrong end of a taxi. 405 00:16:27,273 --> 00:16:29,710 Severe head and neck trauma. Intubated in field. 406 00:16:29,754 --> 00:16:31,495 Okay, let's get him to Trauma One. 407 00:16:31,538 --> 00:16:32,974 Stat, page respiratory and get me ortho. 408 00:16:33,018 --> 00:16:34,846 You've really gone above and beyond. 409 00:16:34,889 --> 00:16:37,065 Can I give you something? - No, please. 410 00:16:40,895 --> 00:16:41,853 Riley? 411 00:16:41,896 --> 00:16:44,159 Can you breathe? 412 00:16:46,640 --> 00:16:48,207 This woman needs help! 413 00:16:51,558 --> 00:16:53,691 Nurse! Anyone! 414 00:17:09,576 --> 00:17:11,404 What the hell are you doing? 415 00:17:11,447 --> 00:17:12,884 Someone call security! 416 00:17:14,195 --> 00:17:16,589 Adult-onset diabetes is nothing to fear. 417 00:17:16,632 --> 00:17:18,591 You should be thrilled we caught it when we did. 418 00:17:19,200 --> 00:17:22,421 This is me thrilled. 419 00:17:22,500 --> 00:17:25,068 So seeing as your pancreas can no longer produce 420 00:17:25,070 --> 00:17:26,549 enough insulin on its own, 421 00:17:26,650 --> 00:17:29,261 we're gonna need to start you on basal-bolus therapy. 422 00:17:29,596 --> 00:17:32,468 And Dr. Goodwin is gonna take you through the routine 423 00:17:32,470 --> 00:17:33,949 so you can do it by yourself, Mama. 424 00:17:34,027 --> 00:17:37,422 I've been doing for myself my whole life. 425 00:17:37,465 --> 00:17:39,337 Diabetes won't slow me down. 426 00:17:39,380 --> 00:17:40,555 Good. 427 00:17:40,599 --> 00:17:42,470 So let's say you're in your kitchen 428 00:17:42,514 --> 00:17:44,820 and you've just finished this meal. 429 00:17:44,864 --> 00:17:46,740 You need to figure out how much insulin to take. 430 00:17:46,800 --> 00:17:49,020 So what you're gonna do is divide your carb intake 431 00:17:49,050 --> 00:17:52,344 by your personal I:C ratio. 432 00:17:52,385 --> 00:17:54,213 You didn't tell me there'd be math. 433 00:17:54,256 --> 00:17:55,823 Well, we'll take it slow, I promise. 434 00:17:55,867 --> 00:17:57,825 So your ratio is 1:20. 435 00:17:57,869 --> 00:17:59,479 That is one unit of insulin 436 00:17:59,522 --> 00:18:01,220 to 20 grams of carbs. 437 00:18:01,263 --> 00:18:04,310 So you're gonna take the total number of grams in that meal 438 00:18:04,353 --> 00:18:07,617 and divide it by 20. 439 00:18:07,661 --> 00:18:11,621 Okay, dividing that... 440 00:18:11,665 --> 00:18:13,145 I would... 441 00:18:13,188 --> 00:18:14,494 stop hovering. 442 00:18:14,537 --> 00:18:17,323 If it's on me, let it be on me, you hear? 443 00:18:17,366 --> 00:18:19,499 Max is here to help, Mama. 444 00:18:22,850 --> 00:18:25,722 3.25 units. 445 00:18:25,766 --> 00:18:27,463 That's very good. That's excellent. 446 00:18:27,507 --> 00:18:29,596 Great. Okay, so, step two. 447 00:18:29,639 --> 00:18:31,859 Administering the insulin. 448 00:18:31,903 --> 00:18:34,470 So what you're gonna do after you've washed your hands 449 00:18:34,514 --> 00:18:37,647 is simply remove this, 450 00:18:37,691 --> 00:18:41,303 insert the needle into the rubber stopper here, 451 00:18:41,347 --> 00:18:42,870 turn the bottle upside down, 452 00:18:42,914 --> 00:18:46,743 and why don't we try just that much. 453 00:18:53,900 --> 00:18:55,162 Come on. 454 00:18:55,748 --> 00:18:57,445 Come on, now. 455 00:18:57,489 --> 00:18:58,533 Oh. 456 00:19:01,536 --> 00:19:04,017 That's okay. Maybe... 457 00:19:04,060 --> 00:19:06,019 I've got it. 458 00:19:06,062 --> 00:19:08,021 I've got it. 459 00:19:17,596 --> 00:19:20,207 Oh. 460 00:19:22,514 --> 00:19:23,950 I can do this. 461 00:19:23,993 --> 00:19:26,344 Mm-hmm. 462 00:19:26,387 --> 00:19:28,041 I can do this. 463 00:19:29,825 --> 00:19:33,481 It's okay. Let's just try again. 464 00:19:33,525 --> 00:19:35,222 My mother's raised three kids, 465 00:19:35,266 --> 00:19:37,833 owns her own home, prays harder than anyone I know 466 00:19:37,877 --> 00:19:39,183 for everyone else's troubles, 467 00:19:39,226 --> 00:19:41,707 and now she needs full-time care. 468 00:19:41,750 --> 00:19:44,100 She can't live by herself. 469 00:19:44,144 --> 00:19:46,015 Wish I was there with you. 470 00:19:46,059 --> 00:19:49,062 Well, maybe if I click my heels three times. 471 00:19:49,105 --> 00:19:52,805 Or maybe if you just turn around? 472 00:20:04,120 --> 00:20:05,121 Why'd you-- 473 00:20:05,165 --> 00:20:07,080 'Cause we're family too, baby. 474 00:20:09,125 --> 00:20:10,779 Come here. 475 00:20:13,054 --> 00:20:15,186 2 centimeters to the left and you would've killed her. 476 00:20:15,230 --> 00:20:16,927 1 centimeter, actually. 477 00:20:18,668 --> 00:20:20,452 Oh, they teach you that in DriveTime school? 478 00:20:20,496 --> 00:20:21,671 I saved your patient. 479 00:20:21,714 --> 00:20:23,499 You knew nothing about my patient. 480 00:20:23,542 --> 00:20:25,066 You swooped in here with no knowledge 481 00:20:25,109 --> 00:20:27,677 of preexisting conditions or current treatment plan 482 00:20:27,720 --> 00:20:29,679 and you stabbed her with a syringe. 483 00:20:29,722 --> 00:20:32,943 You're not curious why her wrist broke with no fall? 484 00:20:32,987 --> 00:20:34,510 You need to check her bone density. 485 00:20:34,553 --> 00:20:36,033 Maybe test for Wilson's disease. 486 00:20:36,077 --> 00:20:38,166 Okay, WebMD, I think it's time for you to leave. 487 00:20:38,209 --> 00:20:40,168 If it's Wilson's and you don't push magnesium, 488 00:20:40,211 --> 00:20:41,430 her heart could stop. 489 00:20:41,473 --> 00:20:43,823 Or, if it's a calcium deficiency, 490 00:20:43,867 --> 00:20:47,088 maybe you could pick us up a quart of milk on your next run. 491 00:20:47,131 --> 00:20:49,742 Get her out of here before I file assault charges. 492 00:20:57,272 --> 00:20:59,056 Okay. 493 00:21:04,105 --> 00:21:05,410 Dr. Frome. 494 00:21:06,803 --> 00:21:09,632 What? Gabriella? 495 00:21:09,675 --> 00:21:12,548 No. No, June is not here with me. 496 00:21:14,593 --> 00:21:16,943 Then where is she? 497 00:21:18,858 --> 00:21:23,080 Okay, did--okay, did she take her phone with her? 498 00:21:23,124 --> 00:21:24,647 Then you need to check all of her texts 499 00:21:24,690 --> 00:21:26,997 and call all of her friends. 500 00:21:27,041 --> 00:21:28,955 Yes. 501 00:21:28,999 --> 00:21:30,609 I'll be in touch. 502 00:21:35,614 --> 00:21:38,182 You're still here? 503 00:21:38,226 --> 00:21:39,401 Yeah, don't worry. 504 00:21:39,444 --> 00:21:42,056 I'm not making you do the PSA. 505 00:21:43,361 --> 00:21:45,450 Sorry, I... 506 00:21:45,494 --> 00:21:47,061 Yeah, I appreciate that. 507 00:21:47,104 --> 00:21:50,107 Mm, I forgot that no one can make you do anything. 508 00:21:50,151 --> 00:21:51,543 Well, except for you. 509 00:21:51,587 --> 00:21:53,023 You could always get me to do what was right 510 00:21:53,067 --> 00:21:55,591 even if I couldn't see it at the time. 511 00:21:55,634 --> 00:21:57,114 You know, if you ever want to come back... 512 00:21:57,158 --> 00:21:58,768 No. 513 00:21:58,811 --> 00:22:00,248 Okay, maybe you wanna think about it-- 514 00:22:00,291 --> 00:22:01,945 No. - Oh. 515 00:22:01,988 --> 00:22:03,990 Okay. 516 00:22:04,034 --> 00:22:06,689 So if you're not doing the PSA and you're not coming back, 517 00:22:06,732 --> 00:22:09,126 then why are you still here? 518 00:22:09,170 --> 00:22:10,606 Oh. 519 00:22:10,649 --> 00:22:12,303 I said you weren't doing the PSA. 520 00:22:12,347 --> 00:22:14,262 I never said I wasn't-- ooh. 521 00:22:14,305 --> 00:22:15,828 But-- 522 00:22:15,872 --> 00:22:17,700 how are you gonna do it without me? 523 00:22:17,743 --> 00:22:20,616 Uh, you've been recast. 524 00:22:22,487 --> 00:22:24,576 Tell me it isn't true. 525 00:22:24,620 --> 00:22:26,143 If you're referring to the PSA-- 526 00:22:26,187 --> 00:22:27,275 No, it's not a PSA. 527 00:22:27,318 --> 00:22:29,320 Saying, "Don't text and drive," 528 00:22:29,364 --> 00:22:30,626 that would be a PSA. 529 00:22:30,669 --> 00:22:32,367 This is propaganda! 530 00:22:32,410 --> 00:22:35,152 You are putting your name, this hospital's name, 531 00:22:35,196 --> 00:22:37,241 on a dangerous lie. 532 00:22:37,285 --> 00:22:39,200 Millie came in today. 533 00:22:39,243 --> 00:22:42,159 She might have a week to live. 534 00:22:42,203 --> 00:22:44,292 While you were out seizing the moral high ground, 535 00:22:44,335 --> 00:22:48,252 I got to tell her that her kids would soon be without a mum. 536 00:22:49,384 --> 00:22:50,994 Her chemo was working, 537 00:22:51,037 --> 00:22:52,822 but she missed six vital treatments 538 00:22:52,865 --> 00:22:54,258 because she was too worried about coming here. 539 00:22:54,302 --> 00:22:56,695 So, yes, of course I'm gonna do the PSA. 540 00:22:56,739 --> 00:22:58,654 Oh. Millie. 541 00:22:58,697 --> 00:23:00,395 If we'd have got word out a month ago, 542 00:23:00,438 --> 00:23:02,179 it might have saved her life. 543 00:23:03,049 --> 00:23:08,011 Yeah, maybe, but it won't just affect people like Millie. 544 00:23:08,054 --> 00:23:11,580 Elderly people deciding to get a physical 545 00:23:11,623 --> 00:23:16,193 or diabetics wondering if now's the right time to get lasik. 546 00:23:16,237 --> 00:23:19,370 Things that can wait should wait. 547 00:23:19,414 --> 00:23:20,806 No hospital's 100% safe, 548 00:23:20,850 --> 00:23:22,156 but we've made ours a lot safer, 549 00:23:22,199 --> 00:23:23,679 and when you consider the alternative-- 550 00:23:23,722 --> 00:23:24,941 Jumping off the third floor is safer 551 00:23:24,984 --> 00:23:26,334 than jumping off the roof, but I don't think 552 00:23:26,377 --> 00:23:28,031 it's gonna make a difference in the outcome. 553 00:23:28,074 --> 00:23:30,512 I won't even bring my own daughter here. 554 00:23:30,555 --> 00:23:33,602 How can I ask anyone else to come here? 555 00:23:35,908 --> 00:23:38,955 If something happened... 556 00:23:38,998 --> 00:23:41,697 to her... 557 00:23:41,740 --> 00:23:45,744 or anyone because I put my thumb on the scale... 558 00:23:48,094 --> 00:23:50,488 After what I've seen today, 559 00:23:50,532 --> 00:23:54,144 I am more than happy to tip the scale. 560 00:23:58,757 --> 00:24:01,107 It's Millie. 561 00:24:09,845 --> 00:24:13,327 Millie's cancer metastasized to her brain. 562 00:24:13,370 --> 00:24:15,590 It caused a massive bleed. 563 00:24:16,939 --> 00:24:19,376 But she was feeling so much better. 564 00:24:19,420 --> 00:24:21,988 I'm so sorry, but... 565 00:24:22,031 --> 00:24:26,383 it doesn't look like she's gonna regain consciousness. 566 00:24:26,427 --> 00:24:31,127 Millie's being kept alive by the life-support machine. 567 00:24:31,911 --> 00:24:34,304 Her brain has stopped functioning. 568 00:24:36,263 --> 00:24:39,440 There's nothing more that we can do. 569 00:24:41,703 --> 00:24:44,837 We just got her back. 570 00:25:16,216 --> 00:25:17,260 Hey, I'm just curious. 571 00:25:17,304 --> 00:25:21,090 Why is this your virtual background? 572 00:25:21,134 --> 00:25:24,311 Before COVID, my parents used to let me come here. 573 00:25:24,354 --> 00:25:26,792 You know, see some friends. 574 00:25:26,835 --> 00:25:28,663 They wouldn't let me ride, though. 575 00:25:28,707 --> 00:25:31,057 Too many germs. 576 00:25:31,100 --> 00:25:34,756 Well, better than nothing, I guess, right? 577 00:25:34,800 --> 00:25:36,192 You gonna tell my folks I'm here? 578 00:25:36,236 --> 00:25:41,241 Yeah, bad news. I narc'd on you already. 579 00:25:41,284 --> 00:25:42,938 The second I saw you. 580 00:25:42,982 --> 00:25:46,115 But you got some time. 581 00:25:46,159 --> 00:25:48,944 You want to tell me why you're down here? 582 00:25:53,340 --> 00:25:55,690 You know, sometimes when people hurt themselves, 583 00:25:55,734 --> 00:25:58,345 it's a distraction. 584 00:25:58,388 --> 00:25:59,999 The physical pain, just for a second, 585 00:26:00,042 --> 00:26:02,436 it stops the emotional pain. 586 00:26:04,960 --> 00:26:07,746 Maybe you came down here to make it really stop? 587 00:26:14,274 --> 00:26:16,189 You need to put your mask on now. 588 00:26:16,232 --> 00:26:17,625 Why? 589 00:26:17,669 --> 00:26:20,759 We can talk about that after you put your mask on. 590 00:26:20,802 --> 00:26:22,499 Please. 591 00:26:22,543 --> 00:26:25,807 If I knew when this virus would be over, 592 00:26:25,851 --> 00:26:28,288 I could maybe do it. 593 00:26:28,331 --> 00:26:32,466 Just...just deal with it until it was done. 594 00:26:32,509 --> 00:26:36,644 And what if the virus never goes away for kids? 595 00:26:36,688 --> 00:26:38,298 There's no vaccine for us. 596 00:26:38,341 --> 00:26:42,824 And I'm just stuck in my room forever. 597 00:26:42,868 --> 00:26:45,348 It's basically like being dead anyway. 598 00:26:48,830 --> 00:26:51,224 I can't keep being alone. 599 00:26:57,970 --> 00:26:59,928 So, after much discussion, 600 00:26:59,972 --> 00:27:02,278 we decided to take Mama back to San Francisco. 601 00:27:02,322 --> 00:27:03,323 Oh, hell, no. 602 00:27:03,366 --> 00:27:05,107 W--wait. - Mm-mm, absolutely not. 603 00:27:05,151 --> 00:27:06,848 Can I lay it out first before you-- 604 00:27:06,892 --> 00:27:08,154 What makes you think taking her away 605 00:27:08,197 --> 00:27:09,634 from everything and everyone she knows 606 00:27:09,677 --> 00:27:11,026 is gonna be good for her? 607 00:27:11,070 --> 00:27:12,724 Court, we got the space. All right? 608 00:27:12,767 --> 00:27:14,682 And with both of our incomes-- - Oh, so it's about your money? 609 00:27:14,726 --> 00:27:16,989 No. - Is Mama good with this? 610 00:27:17,032 --> 00:27:18,773 I thought we should be on the same page first. 611 00:27:18,817 --> 00:27:20,035 Oh, your page. 612 00:27:20,079 --> 00:27:21,820 Mama's golden child. 613 00:27:21,863 --> 00:27:23,386 Whatever her baby Floyd says is law. 614 00:27:23,430 --> 00:27:24,474 Oh, come on, Court. 615 00:27:24,518 --> 00:27:25,911 Look, I'm just trying to step up. 616 00:27:25,954 --> 00:27:27,739 You and Brandi have your own families to deal with. 617 00:27:27,782 --> 00:27:29,392 Our lives are a little more flexible. 618 00:27:29,436 --> 00:27:31,786 So we can do more now. - Not more than us. 619 00:27:31,830 --> 00:27:34,397 Where were you when we were checking in on her every day, 620 00:27:34,441 --> 00:27:37,183 bringing her food, making sure she was safe? 621 00:27:37,226 --> 00:27:38,619 We did all that with no problems 622 00:27:38,663 --> 00:27:40,882 while you were chillin', bunned up in San Francisco. 623 00:27:40,926 --> 00:27:42,449 He wanted to be here. 624 00:27:42,492 --> 00:27:45,626 Every second of every day, he was worried sick about Mama 625 00:27:45,670 --> 00:27:46,888 and you and your family. 626 00:27:46,932 --> 00:27:48,455 Pump the brakes. This is family business. 627 00:27:48,498 --> 00:27:50,152 Whoa, whoa, you don't gotta talk to her like that. 628 00:27:50,196 --> 00:27:51,806 You don't gotta-- - Stop this! 629 00:27:51,850 --> 00:27:54,940 I am not dead! 630 00:27:54,983 --> 00:27:57,420 So stop talking about me like I am. 631 00:28:05,037 --> 00:28:06,560 I know she was out of line, 632 00:28:06,603 --> 00:28:09,998 but pulling off a successful needle decompression 633 00:28:10,042 --> 00:28:12,087 is pretty cool. 634 00:28:12,131 --> 00:28:13,828 In fact, she kinda reminds me of-- 635 00:28:13,872 --> 00:28:15,917 Are you sure you wanna finish that sentence? 636 00:28:15,961 --> 00:28:18,311 It's Riley. She's having runs of V-tach. 637 00:28:18,354 --> 00:28:20,095 You push esmolol? - Yes, and no change. 638 00:28:20,139 --> 00:28:22,097 Procainamide? - Didn't work either. 639 00:28:24,796 --> 00:28:26,449 Yeah, it's V-tach, all right. 640 00:28:26,493 --> 00:28:28,625 Push amiodarone. 641 00:28:39,332 --> 00:28:42,335 BP's dropping. It's not working. 642 00:28:46,774 --> 00:28:49,298 Magnesium. Push magnesium. 643 00:28:49,342 --> 00:28:50,952 You sure? 644 00:28:50,996 --> 00:28:52,780 1 gram--now. 645 00:29:06,402 --> 00:29:08,361 Nice save, boss. 646 00:29:14,846 --> 00:29:16,151 Settle. 647 00:29:16,195 --> 00:29:18,284 Okay, Helen. And action. 648 00:29:20,068 --> 00:29:21,853 I'm Dr. Helen, 649 00:29:21,896 --> 00:29:23,202 and this office adjoins one of 650 00:29:23,245 --> 00:29:25,508 our new Airborne Infection Isolation Rooms. 651 00:29:25,552 --> 00:29:27,772 It's built with negative airflow pressure, 652 00:29:27,815 --> 00:29:29,643 the HVAC filters are cleared daily, 653 00:29:29,686 --> 00:29:31,819 and it's fitted with outdoor air intake 654 00:29:31,863 --> 00:29:34,953 COVID-19-safe exhaust handling. 655 00:29:36,345 --> 00:29:38,826 Here at New Amsterdam, we're confident... 656 00:29:44,571 --> 00:29:48,183 Here at New Amsterdam, we're confident that you'll be... 657 00:29:50,272 --> 00:29:52,753 Actually, I'm sorry. - You're doing great. 658 00:29:52,797 --> 00:29:54,189 No, I'm not. 659 00:29:54,233 --> 00:29:56,148 Helen, everything you're saying is true. 660 00:29:56,191 --> 00:29:57,410 The HVAC, the exhaust. 661 00:29:57,453 --> 00:30:00,979 Yes, the facts are accurate, 662 00:30:01,022 --> 00:30:03,895 but, "Here at New Amsterdam, we're confident." 663 00:30:05,113 --> 00:30:07,942 I'm not confident of anything right now. 664 00:30:07,986 --> 00:30:09,161 Are you? 665 00:30:11,554 --> 00:30:15,471 'Cause to tell you the truth, I'm terrified... 666 00:30:15,515 --> 00:30:17,038 most of the time. 667 00:30:17,082 --> 00:30:19,954 Because we've been living in a dystopian nightmare. 668 00:30:19,998 --> 00:30:23,044 We are losing good people with children 669 00:30:23,088 --> 00:30:24,916 and with families, and I'm standing here 670 00:30:24,959 --> 00:30:28,702 talking about exhaust handling? 671 00:30:28,745 --> 00:30:31,444 People need reassurance. 672 00:30:31,487 --> 00:30:33,054 Do they? 673 00:30:39,017 --> 00:30:42,368 'Cause the people I know wanna stop feeling scared 674 00:30:42,411 --> 00:30:45,197 and they wanna stay alive. 675 00:30:45,240 --> 00:30:47,068 And I can't reassure them of that. 676 00:30:47,112 --> 00:30:50,158 No one can, because the world is not safe. 677 00:30:50,202 --> 00:30:51,812 So you can't expect me to stand here and say, 678 00:30:51,856 --> 00:30:53,814 "I'm confident that there's nothing to be afraid of," 679 00:30:53,858 --> 00:30:56,556 when everyone should be afraid! 680 00:30:57,818 --> 00:30:59,646 So what do we do? 681 00:31:02,867 --> 00:31:05,739 We can tell... 682 00:31:05,782 --> 00:31:08,524 We can tell people the truth: 683 00:31:08,568 --> 00:31:11,571 that we may never get rid of this virus... 684 00:31:11,614 --> 00:31:15,140 so we have to find a way to live with it. 685 00:31:15,183 --> 00:31:17,838 'Cause even if we vaccinate every single American, 686 00:31:17,882 --> 00:31:19,796 there's gonna be another virus around the corner. 687 00:31:19,840 --> 00:31:23,626 And another one after that, and we can't stop living. 688 00:31:23,670 --> 00:31:25,411 We can't barricade ourselves in, 689 00:31:25,454 --> 00:31:26,891 because that is when you give up things 690 00:31:26,934 --> 00:31:29,502 that you can never get back. 691 00:31:44,126 --> 00:31:46,694 So, Brandi and Courtney will take turns 692 00:31:46,737 --> 00:31:48,478 helping you during the day, 693 00:31:48,522 --> 00:31:52,221 and we'll get someone to stay with you at night. 694 00:31:52,265 --> 00:31:55,703 That don't sound too bad, does it? 695 00:31:55,746 --> 00:31:57,052 So... 696 00:31:57,096 --> 00:31:59,837 I'll be living with a stranger? 697 00:31:59,881 --> 00:32:01,927 A trained healthcare professional. 698 00:32:06,322 --> 00:32:08,890 Would you do that to your mama? 699 00:32:15,897 --> 00:32:19,770 I hope I never have to make that decision. 700 00:32:19,814 --> 00:32:22,121 Because it sucks. 701 00:32:22,164 --> 00:32:24,514 All of it. 702 00:32:25,907 --> 00:32:29,389 I like her. 703 00:32:29,432 --> 00:32:33,915 Oh, Mama. 704 00:32:33,959 --> 00:32:37,266 I wish there was another way, but there isn't. 705 00:32:40,748 --> 00:32:44,752 I'll visit as often as I can. You know that. 706 00:32:44,795 --> 00:32:47,146 New York will always be my home. 707 00:32:51,019 --> 00:32:54,457 Mm. - Hmm? 708 00:32:54,501 --> 00:32:56,285 Come here. 709 00:32:58,505 --> 00:33:00,115 It's okay. 710 00:33:28,100 --> 00:33:30,580 Hi. - Thank you... 711 00:33:30,624 --> 00:33:33,322 for saying what we've all been feeling. 712 00:33:33,366 --> 00:33:36,499 What? What? 713 00:33:39,198 --> 00:33:42,418 What did I... 714 00:33:42,462 --> 00:33:43,767 I'm on the news? 715 00:33:43,811 --> 00:33:46,074 "Meltdown" is a strong word, don't you think? 716 00:33:46,118 --> 00:33:47,554 Max? - I wouldn't worry about it. 717 00:33:47,597 --> 00:33:50,600 You only have, like, 3.2 million views. 718 00:33:50,644 --> 00:33:52,646 ...because the world is not safe. 719 00:33:52,689 --> 00:33:54,256 So you can't expect me to stand here and say, 720 00:33:54,300 --> 00:33:56,084 "I'm confident that there's nothing to be afraid of," 721 00:33:56,128 --> 00:33:58,086 when everyone should be afraid! 722 00:33:58,130 --> 00:33:59,479 Oh, my God. - Yeah. 723 00:33:59,522 --> 00:34:01,568 Why would you release that? 724 00:34:01,611 --> 00:34:03,091 Who, me? - Just stop. 725 00:34:03,135 --> 00:34:04,745 Are you--I would never! 726 00:34:04,788 --> 00:34:07,574 Yeah, okay. Yes, I would, but I didn't. 727 00:34:07,617 --> 00:34:10,272 And you were brilliant! - Okay. Big swing, Max. 728 00:34:10,316 --> 00:34:12,448 Of course you think I did it. You think I did everything. 729 00:34:12,492 --> 00:34:13,928 But I didn't. 730 00:34:13,971 --> 00:34:16,104 Stop it. 731 00:34:16,148 --> 00:34:18,846 And another one after that, and we can't stop living. 732 00:34:18,889 --> 00:34:20,543 We can't barricade ourselves in, 733 00:34:20,587 --> 00:34:21,892 because that is when you give up things 734 00:34:21,936 --> 00:34:24,069 that you can never get back. 735 00:34:24,112 --> 00:34:27,028 Actually, do you-- do you know what? 736 00:34:27,072 --> 00:34:29,074 I'm relieved that my words are out there. 737 00:34:29,117 --> 00:34:30,858 I'm glad to hear you say that. 738 00:34:33,078 --> 00:34:35,384 3.2 million views 739 00:34:35,428 --> 00:34:37,517 and a huge spike in our scheduling. 740 00:34:37,560 --> 00:34:40,259 It worked. 741 00:34:40,302 --> 00:34:42,565 Sorry, what worked? - You were both right. 742 00:34:42,609 --> 00:34:44,263 People don't need reassurance. 743 00:34:44,306 --> 00:34:47,222 They need honesty. 744 00:34:47,266 --> 00:34:49,137 You didn't release it? 745 00:34:49,181 --> 00:34:50,834 No. 746 00:34:50,878 --> 00:34:52,619 But I think I know who did. 747 00:34:55,970 --> 00:34:58,407 I learned from the best. 748 00:35:12,813 --> 00:35:14,902 Hi. Hi, guys. 749 00:35:14,945 --> 00:35:16,251 Thank you. 750 00:35:16,295 --> 00:35:17,600 Thank you so much for coming. 751 00:35:17,644 --> 00:35:20,734 I know that's a really big deal, so thank you. 752 00:35:20,777 --> 00:35:22,953 You sure this is safe? 753 00:35:22,997 --> 00:35:25,217 As safe as it can be, yeah. 754 00:35:28,307 --> 00:35:29,830 You ready? 755 00:35:31,962 --> 00:35:33,399 Are they all your patients? 756 00:35:33,442 --> 00:35:34,878 Um, no, no. 757 00:35:34,922 --> 00:35:37,142 They're just a group of really cool young women 758 00:35:37,185 --> 00:35:38,621 just like June. 759 00:35:38,665 --> 00:35:40,536 Each one is immunocompromised in one way or another, 760 00:35:40,580 --> 00:35:42,799 each still living at home on lockdown 761 00:35:42,843 --> 00:35:44,801 without much family or friends, 762 00:35:44,845 --> 00:35:47,804 and each one knowing exactly what you're going through. 763 00:35:50,024 --> 00:35:51,460 You brought them all here for me? 764 00:35:51,504 --> 00:35:52,940 I also brought you here for them. 765 00:35:52,983 --> 00:35:55,160 So don't make me look bad. 766 00:35:56,987 --> 00:35:59,555 All right? Get in there. 767 00:36:04,560 --> 00:36:07,433 Thank you, Dr. Frome. 768 00:36:07,476 --> 00:36:08,825 I mean, we're all just parents 769 00:36:08,869 --> 00:36:10,479 trying to figure this out, right? 770 00:36:12,351 --> 00:36:15,832 Which is why there's a group of them right over here 771 00:36:15,876 --> 00:36:17,660 that I'm sure would love it 772 00:36:17,704 --> 00:36:20,707 if you went over there and said, "Hey." 773 00:36:20,750 --> 00:36:23,144 I'm sure they'd love for you to join them, 774 00:36:23,188 --> 00:36:24,885 if you're up to it. 775 00:36:26,365 --> 00:36:29,324 Sure. Okay. 776 00:36:29,368 --> 00:36:32,066 Good. 777 00:36:35,548 --> 00:36:37,332 Oh, yeah. 778 00:36:37,376 --> 00:36:38,768 You guys are lucky. 779 00:36:38,812 --> 00:36:41,162 I don't even have any siblings. 780 00:36:41,206 --> 00:36:43,033 Yeah, well no, it's--trust me, 781 00:36:43,077 --> 00:36:45,035 I wish I didn't either sometimes. 782 00:36:45,079 --> 00:36:47,081 Same, same. 783 00:36:50,476 --> 00:36:52,565 Wait! 784 00:36:55,307 --> 00:36:57,744 Wait! 785 00:36:57,787 --> 00:36:59,354 Would you open up? 786 00:37:01,138 --> 00:37:02,357 What? 787 00:37:02,401 --> 00:37:04,968 1 gram of magnesium. 788 00:37:05,012 --> 00:37:07,754 Riley's alive thanks to you. 789 00:37:12,324 --> 00:37:14,804 I'm trying to say I'm sorry! 790 00:37:14,848 --> 00:37:16,589 Then you should know, 791 00:37:16,632 --> 00:37:18,243 you're not very good at it. 792 00:37:18,286 --> 00:37:20,027 Yeah. I know. 793 00:37:21,550 --> 00:37:24,336 So where'd you practice medicine? 794 00:37:26,033 --> 00:37:29,254 Pakistan. Pediatric attending. 795 00:37:33,867 --> 00:37:36,652 Are you living in here? 796 00:37:42,876 --> 00:37:44,486 I can get you a spot in a shelter. 797 00:37:44,530 --> 00:37:45,922 Good night, Dr. Bloom. 798 00:37:45,966 --> 00:37:48,098 What about a hotel room? - No hotels. 799 00:37:48,142 --> 00:37:49,752 No shelter. No, thank you. 800 00:37:49,796 --> 00:37:50,884 Okay, there's gotta be something 801 00:37:50,927 --> 00:37:52,059 that I can help you with. 802 00:37:52,102 --> 00:37:54,409 You saved my patient's life. 803 00:37:54,453 --> 00:37:57,282 Well, there's gotta be something you need. 804 00:38:04,767 --> 00:38:05,986 So, here are our showers. 805 00:38:06,029 --> 00:38:08,815 They're either freezing or scalding hot, 806 00:38:08,858 --> 00:38:10,773 but if you toggle the handle to the left, 807 00:38:10,817 --> 00:38:13,385 then you're gonna land somewhere in the middle. 808 00:38:15,256 --> 00:38:17,171 Thank you. 809 00:38:19,434 --> 00:38:21,610 Five stars. 810 00:38:28,182 --> 00:38:30,793 Floyd? You guys taking off? 811 00:38:30,837 --> 00:38:32,752 Yeah, we're hitting the road. 812 00:38:32,795 --> 00:38:35,320 Hey, thanks for all your help with Mama. 813 00:38:35,363 --> 00:38:37,017 Oh, we'll take good care of her. 814 00:38:37,060 --> 00:38:39,933 Anything you need, just let us know. 815 00:38:43,371 --> 00:38:46,331 I love you, brother. - Love you too, pal. 816 00:38:47,767 --> 00:38:50,247 You know, your family here... 817 00:38:50,291 --> 00:38:52,032 will miss you. 818 00:39:01,302 --> 00:39:03,217 Ready to go home? 819 00:39:04,479 --> 00:39:06,699 I think you already are. 820 00:39:20,713 --> 00:39:23,672 Saw your meltdown on YouTube. 821 00:39:23,716 --> 00:39:26,588 Pretty boss. 822 00:39:26,632 --> 00:39:30,026 Willow. You came back. 823 00:39:36,772 --> 00:39:39,775 You heard about Millie? 824 00:39:39,819 --> 00:39:44,258 Home again, home again 825 00:39:44,301 --> 00:39:47,870 I thought maybe... - One day, I know 826 00:39:47,914 --> 00:39:51,613 It was time to do some more tests. 827 00:39:51,657 --> 00:39:56,705 Born again, born again 828 00:39:56,749 --> 00:40:01,057 One day, I know I'll feel strong again 829 00:40:01,101 --> 00:40:04,583 I lift my head 830 00:40:07,890 --> 00:40:11,590 Many times, I've been told 831 00:40:13,940 --> 00:40:17,073 All this talk will make you old 832 00:40:17,117 --> 00:40:20,903 So I'll close my eyes 833 00:40:20,947 --> 00:40:23,210 Look behind 834 00:40:23,253 --> 00:40:24,820 "Hi. 835 00:40:24,864 --> 00:40:27,910 "My name is Iggy... 836 00:40:27,954 --> 00:40:30,086 and I have an eating disorder." 837 00:40:30,130 --> 00:40:32,088 So I close my eyes 838 00:40:32,132 --> 00:40:34,874 Look behind 839 00:40:34,917 --> 00:40:38,443 Moving on 840 00:40:41,141 --> 00:40:45,798 Lost again, lost again 841 00:40:45,841 --> 00:40:49,366 Evie. 842 00:40:49,410 --> 00:40:53,109 I shouldn't have made you leave New York. 843 00:40:53,153 --> 00:40:56,896 You did not make me leave. I wanted to. 844 00:40:59,115 --> 00:41:01,727 If only wanting was enough. 845 00:41:08,864 --> 00:41:14,479 Many times, I've been told 846 00:41:14,522 --> 00:41:18,961 Speak your mind, just be bold 847 00:41:19,005 --> 00:41:22,008 So I'll close my eyes 848 00:41:22,051 --> 00:41:24,793 Look behind 849 00:41:24,837 --> 00:41:27,187 Moving on 850 00:41:27,230 --> 00:41:30,277 Moving on 851 00:41:30,320 --> 00:41:34,237 So I'll close my eyes 852 00:41:34,281 --> 00:41:37,806 And the tears will clear 853 00:41:39,895 --> 00:41:44,117 Then I'll feel no fear 854 00:41:44,160 --> 00:41:45,901 Yeah, well, I've been thinking. 855 00:41:45,945 --> 00:41:50,166 Maybe instead of me coming up to Connecticut this weekend, 856 00:41:50,210 --> 00:41:54,257 Luna should come home... 857 00:41:54,301 --> 00:41:55,650 for good. 858 00:41:57,565 --> 00:42:00,046 Yeah, I know, but I missed her first birthday. 859 00:42:01,917 --> 00:42:04,746 And then I missed her first steps. 860 00:42:07,270 --> 00:42:10,056 I just don't want to miss anything else.